For years, I have dreamed of preaching the good news God shares with me to men and women on a large scale. The dream has been squashed by myself and others and I've denied I ever wanted it to deal with the pain of setting it aside. I've longed for it and been discouraged, I've dusted it off and then feared it.
There were barriers to the pursuit of that dream along the way, some real and some imagined that seemed just as real. Now that all the barriers are gone, I'm confronted with questions I'd never noticed before.
These questions occupy my thoughts almost daily now:
Is this truly my dream? Now that it is possible, do I want to do it? Why do I hesitate? What do I fear?
God says, "Do not fear" about 143 times in the Bible. I know He wants me to believe Him to do great and mighty things for my good, no matter how impossible they seem to me. I know operating in fear is not operating in faith in my God who is good and cares personally about every detail of my life (Psalm 139; Jeremiah 29:11). I feel paralyzed somewhere deep down.
I'm on new frontiers and taking baby steps.
Without barriers, would you pursue your dream? Would your dream be the same?
Sometimes I have wondered if we are so comfortable and used to the fear that when barriers are taken away we don't know what to do without the fear of those barriers so we create more fear to feel comfortable again. I guess learning to act in God is learning to live without fear and barriers. So, just go for it without thinking too much!
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